I shouldn't be having this conversation with you. Two weeks of bad results from her head scans. Her regular neurosurgeon was on vacation this week so the neurosurgeon who looked at her head ultrasounds didn't want to rush into things. She will have another ultrasound on Sunday or Monday. At this point, she is close enough to going home that if her ventricles in her brain swell a little more this week then they will most likely put in a shunt (http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Cerebral_shunt) next week. Needless to say, we wish God would heal her. We thought he did two or three weeks ago when everyone prayed and her results looked better.
I just don't understand. Where is God who is the Great Physician? I truly believe 100% that God is able to miraculously heal her in an instant. I also believe that he can choose not to because he is God. That is what scares me. We are not worthy of receiving anything good from God, so I guess if he decides not to heal her brain then we got what we deserved. Please be merciful, God. Church, please plead to God with us, we really are running out of time on this one.